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Day 1- Trusting My Body

In the previous video I talked about my fears around not being able to control physical pain and limitation. In deciding to stop the efforts I was making with ibuprofen and inhalers to control that pain and limitation, there is a wonderful feeling of adventure.

Desire. Obligation. Big Difference.

This video talks about noticing fear. As I’ve shared many times on this blog, the surest way to continue to suffer is to judge that which is causing it.

This isn’t a condemnation of fear. The fear of being afraid is also a fear. I still have fears, and in accepting their presence I am free to work with them, and get beyond them.

Excavation Breath

What’s triggering you lately?

Social distancing? Or perhaps those that don’t? Trump? Or those that hate on him? The ol’ retirement fund tanking? No money for rent? How will I feed my family?

Fear of dying? Sigh. It’s all getting real now, isn’t it?

Hmmm. Maybe for you it’s just the cabin fever, I hate being restricted itch. It doesn’t matter what it is. They are all diving boards if you want them to be. Launching points, if you allow them to be, into deeper healing and freedom.

You will not be the same after doing some of this. Take the feeling of a good cry and multiply by 10.

Aptly named, this is a –dig up and toss the fuck out-approach to your buried emotion. The only shovel you need is your breath. And the courage and self worth it takes to look at your suffering and say “Get in the backseat, friend. I’m taking the wheel!”

So, I’m not gonna explain the process. Jeff does that in the video. I will just offer that if it resonates, but you don’t happen to be sad, afraid or pissed off at the moment, wait till you are. You will need the authenticity and momentum of the felt moment to get started, and keep going. And of course you want access to some privacy. Let the noise come on out. Energy needs vibration to leave the body.

Many thanks to Jeff Brown. For all his inner work and the books, videos and written posts that it has birthed.

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One of the great risks we are facing in the heart of this panic-demic is that we hold onto our emotions too tightly, gripping tight for dear life. This is a natural response when we are in a survivalistic state of being, but is actually not the thing that will serve us. Emotional release is. We must release our emotional holdings and shed our armor so that we can create space inside to see things clearly. And to ensure our well-being is not compromised by an overload of anxiety. Release, release, release. With this in heart, I read one of the exercises from my book, Grounded Spirituality. Called, 'The Excavation Meditation'. You don't need a large space to do it. You can do it sitting on the floor in your room.

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Achingly Beautiful

Stood alone on a mountain top
Starin’ out at the Great Divide
I could go east, I could go west
It was all up to me to decide
Just then I saw a young hawk flyin’
And my soul began to rise
And pretty soon
My heart was singin’ ~Bob Seger

There has been a lot of Seger lately. And Van Morrison. And others from the 70’s whose soul stirring lyrics echo the awakening of the 60’s. Beliefs and social norms had crumbled for many young people, and in much of their music is the achingly beautiful voice of a heart open to the present moment. To Life, without the rules.

Your heart, your inner awareness, is free. And it is those feelings of freedom, of your soul rising in the beauty of a free and fearless moment, that you will remember when this human life is ending. Feel for a moment…how much time do we spend on that which will not matter in the end?

Like many others, Roll Me Away is an anthem of freedom. May you find your heart’s joy today, and see through the illusion of fear that can so easily preoccupy our energy and attention.

If you have 10 more minutes to listen to me talk a bit more about this, great. If not, below this video is a link to the aforementioned song. May your soul rise with it.

 

Feeling The Now

Where are you, right now? In every respect, where are you? And what does it feel like?

It’s amazing, when you get really present with where you find yourself right now. Your inner world, your life circumstances-  countless choices have brought you here.

What is determining your perception of your reality right now? Your mind or your heart? How different does life feel from a feeling place instead of a thinking one?

If you would like some help finding out, below are a couple of guided open eyed meditations. One was recorded in this very spot by Oak Creek.

They can be listened to alone or back to back. Each is about 8 minutes. I would suggest listening alone, or with someone you are  ready to be utterly authentic with.

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