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How Do You Feel?

A few thoughts from a creek side spot. On the difference I feel in perspective and priorities when I get deep into Nature, or other activities that have beauty and a sense of wonder.

How we move through this time in history is important. I know what I want to contribute.

 

 

I Don’t Know

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I sat in the rising sun this morning, (a bit later than this, 😉 feeling it’s warmth my skin. The energy of an homemade orange/ginger/celery juice was lighting me up on the inside. And for the first few moments, my mind was content to just enjoy that.
To just be there. The morning breeze rustling the leaves. The wild rabbits hopping about, nibbling on weeds.  The ants beneath the chair moving intently on their silent missions. My deepening presence bringing It’s usual peace and quiet trust to my breath.
I noticed it didn’t take long for my mind to then reach for conclusions from yesterday. For the latest version of “I understand what’s going on”. I was reminded again of how desperate my mind is for that. That feeling of having things figured out.
A deep breath followed. I smiled inwardly at my mind.
No, friend, you don’t. You don’t know what is next. For Todd, for this country, for humankind. Let it go. Come, just breathe with me. The grace, the wonder of this moment is sweeter without the temporary comfort you seek. Can you feel this? This trust, this openness to the mystery of Life?
And the I that is my mind was reminded. I don’t know. And it is indeed sweeter that way. Held in the arms of something far more vast, filled with far more peace and potential than I can conjure up.
After awhile, the Arizona sun grew hot, and I came inside. I had second breakfast with old friend Alan Watts. My heart loves some Alan Watts. He puts my beliefs in the back seat. He is a voice of the unknown, of surrender. He is Zen- without the traditions.
I listened to the video below. And the end of it describes exactly where I was outside on the chair. Funny how that happens.
I went inside to go to the bathroom. My mind leaped at the opportunity. Something familiar! By the time I left headed back outside I was deep in a reminiscense of days gone by. Of a time of with more foundation. A more defined role. A lot more doing. And those accomplishments, that version of myself- oh how my mind loves to return there.
A warm pride and nostalgia fills me. I see it, I feel it. I enjoy the moment. There is nothing wrong with who we were, just as there isn’t with who we find ourselves to be Now.
I am grateful to know, however, that I can’t stay there. I can’t let the past keep me out of the present. I can’t trade the illusion of safety that memory offers for the magic of the unknown in my Now.
And so I go further into the moment.
To where, I just don’t know.

Thank You

Thank you, Life, for feeling this way.

Thank you, my heart, for opening to it.

 

Thank you, to those that shot this. And thank, Mother Earth, for having me here.

(This is two hours of wondrous sight and sound. It loops after about 20 min. Even 5 min of this….may it take you Home)

 

For What It’s Worth

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If I keep saying ‘thank you’ to Life, I feel the Love of It’s presence. Be it simple beauty like this, or the physical challenges of my body- if I just breathe, and give thanks for the experience of it, and keep breathing….a subtle sense of awe quickens my spirit.

Gratitude opens the door for Grace.

I feel more alive. I sense the eternal nature of my awareness as it experiences a precious moment that will never be exactly the same again. It feels like a gift.

This recognition adds more gratitude. And grace.

All at once I am aware of the great expanse of experience that is my life. The joy, the heartache. So much beauty….and from here, from within this moment of heart centered presence- all that once did not feel beautiful, now does.

The alchemy of this relationship with Life changes completely when I stop thinking. The endless search for solutions and control mercifully ceases. I just am. Here. Now.

I know myself~ beloved on this Earth.

Somethin’s happenin’ here. What it is, ain’t exactly clear.

We can love one another through this. We can see our truth, and live it, without the fear that will divide us.

May this version of a classic bring peace to your heart. The social cry of those (and these) times, fused with the love and peace of a kirtan flow. For what it’s worth…

 

Letting It All In

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Can you breathe deeply into this moment? Can you let all of you in?

It’s a powerful thing, every time I am all in.

This is an eyes wide open meditation. Outside if possible, alone in Nature or on the streets of your city. Take a 15 minute walk with me….and every expression of you.

Day 1- Trusting My Body

In the previous video I talked about my fears around not being able to control physical pain and limitation. In deciding to stop the efforts I was making with ibuprofen and inhalers to control that pain and limitation, there is a wonderful feeling of adventure.