I decided this is a better title than the one I used on You Tube.
I don’t know what to say
I don’t have an answer,
My pain is different
My experience isn’t yours,
All I know is I’m sorry
All I can say is I’m here,
And I care.
Know you can be real
Know it’s safe here,
If I could take it from you
If I could carry it for you,
Perhaps that’s all we need
Perhaps some moments,
Just need sharing.
Breathe with me
Breathe in, I’m here.
You are not alone.
To heal my pain
I’ve had to burn it clean
To burn it clean
I’ve had to see it’s truth
To see it’s truth
I’ve had to lose all judgement.
To lose all judgement
I’ve let go of beliefs.
To let go of beliefs
I’ve surrendered control.
To surrender control
I had to be broken.
Stop on the inside.
Honor what is there.
If you want to be free
It starts with being real.
If it’s vengeance your pain wants,
Stop calling it equality. Or justice.
Own it. Accept it.
If you don’t feel safe
Stop saying you do.
Admit it. Accept it.
What do you really feel,
In your tender heart?
Love pushes nothing away.
Love will hold it close.
Love will let it burn clean.
I’m grateful to be wading through some of the deeper pools of energy bubbling to the surface of my experience. Some of which I’ve had subconscious ways of avoiding for a very long time. 10 min listen.
I’m having a very mournful day. Feeling very isolated and alone.
I went to the grocery store and noticed how people just passed each other by. No eye contact, no smiling. Perhaps it’s just one of those days and I understand that. But it felt really lonely. And disconnected.
Yesterday I saw a deaf man whom I met about a year ago. When we met he told me in sign language I was beautiful. I was touched. A stranger was transparent enough to tell me what he was thinking in the very moment he met me. I was flattered and thanked him. And yesterday, as I was walking down an aisle of different store, I was thinking about him. I was remembering that moment when I met him and how sweet it was. I was remembering how people around me were talking and smiling. I was remembering, too, how the cashier smiled when he spoke to me.
Just then, there he was, turning the corner! I smiled but he couldn’t see through my mask. So I waved and he stopped. I pulled my mask down and told him that I was just thinking about him. He was touched and smiled too.
We stood there for a few moments with eye contact and no masks on. It felt wonderful, to be vulnerable and connect. Then we waved good-bye and went on our way.
I miss smiling at people and making eye contact. I miss hugging people. I miss simply being around people. I just started going into the office at work, and everyone there stays in their square rooms, with the doors closed. It feels so isolating. I don’t blame anyone. I understand. I’m just saying how it feels and how lonely it can be.
I don’t usually share these states of mind, these feelings, because I work through them. But today was a rough one, and figured if I’d I felt this way, others may have too. Maybe somehow this can help someone- in knowing someone else feels this way today too.
Tonight as I get ready for bed, I know I’ve acknowledged my feelings. I’ve shared them with whom I felt I needed to share them. I have cried and I have cleared my energies, releasing what could be released, and now it’s time to rest and allow my body to do what it needs to do.
Tomorrow is another day. Let the sun rise and shine brightly for a new day. May people see the smiles in my eyes, and feel safe and connected there.
~Adrienne Milagros Cheney
I recently saw the extent to which I’d been controlling both physical pain and the possible limitations that my body could offer me. I saw how every day I was protecting myself from the past.
Helped my a couple myofascial release sessions, I felt safe enough to let go of the protections that OTC pain meds offered. A week later it feels wonderful to be living in a different reality- physically, energetically and spiritually.
It’s not pain free. But it’s my reality, not dulled or masked.
And here I am, picking my nose.
Good morning, friends. I had a truly wonderful and peace-filled day so far, and just wanted to share something that was a big part of that.
Below is a You Tube video. Two Sanskirt mantras set to a soft guitar melody. To me it feels quietly hopeful in it’s gratitude. What a wonderful energy to get stuck in my head all day.
My suggestion is this. In choosing a more magical start to your day tomorrow, go to bed just a little earlier than usual. Maybe 30 minutes earlier. Then get up 30 min before you usually do. Turn this music on while your mind is still a bit foggy.
If at all possible, get outside. Look out the window if you can’t. Take at least 5 deep breaths. Couple of air squats. And walk slowly wherever your heart takes you, as you listen to this music.
Do yourself a favor and don’t google what the words mean. Just let it be. Let your heart rest in this new moment. It’s a new day. You are here. Keep breathing. If you find yourself humming the melody or softly singing along- let it flow.
This blog has been renewed in a rather magical way. That story and why I choose to see it this way..
A few thoughts as I post here on WordPress for the last time.